Final Thoughts

July 15

2:10pm,

Oh God, the final arguments. What is Petrocelli going to say?? Or Briggs?? Or O’Brien?? What’s she going to say, is she going to try to push the jury to think that I’m guilty when she suppose to be telling them I’m not???
I still don’t know whether or not she thinking I’m guilty or if she sees a monster. What does she see; I mean I can’t go back to that jail. I just can’t that place is horrible. Is O’Brien really going to put her own client into jail on purpose????
Or am I going to go to jail because Briggs connects me to King even after I said he was just someone I talked to a little bit??
Oh God what are my parents thinking??? What about Jerry, what is he going to think when he’s old when he finds out that his brother is or was a possible criminal???? Will he hate, or will he forgive me?? If he looks over the trail will he think I’m guilty or unfairly put into jail?????
Do my parents really think I’m innocent or that I belong in jail??? Will they never truth me again or will they forgive me???? Even if I don’t go to jail will they be on me all the time or will they say “You’ve learned your lesson.”
Or what about my friends or my teachers will they turn away from me or will they still talk to me.
Why did this happen to me, what did I do???? I’m sorry if I blamed Tony for something I did or that I’m bad at picking good friends. But what did I do????

2:30,
Thank you God!!!!!! I’m good, I’m good. I’m not dead yet. Thank you Briggs!!!!! Take that King, you certainly are not a friend of mine. But what about the jury???
I can’t tell what they’re thinking. They all have unreadable faces on. Will anything chance the way they see me??? Does it all depend on what O’Brien say??? But what is O’Brien going to say???
Maybe I should just ask her what she thinks of me???? And should I really be asking myself if I truly want to know what she sees in her client??? What will she say????

2:40,
Ok???? Is she didn’t directly say that I was innocent but she never said that word. All she said was that I was not guilty, why not use the word where it is meant to be used. In a court room when you are trying to keep someone out of jail????? Doesn’t that mean she really does think I’m guilty???? What does she see in me???
What do others see when I pass by or look at them??? Do they automatically see a monster or do they see unsure 16 year old, who is just trying to found himself??? What????
Is it just like when I see a new person, I judge or assume what they're like. Maybe that's what their doing to me........ I guess Karma is a pain in the neck.
But is karma going to put me into jail??? What is Petrocelli going to say???? It all comes down to these next few minutes.......I think I'm going to die from the emotions!!!!

2:50,
Ok so far she hasn't mention me yet........spoke to soon. But I didn't participate in this crime. I didn't "check out the place," I went to get some mints. I paid for them. Why would I kill the man I just bought mints from? The said mints are still sitting in my room untouched and uneaten.
Hold the phone; didn't the newscaster say the robbers were masked???? Was that every talked about?? I should tell O'Brien......but wait is it too late to bring this factor in???? I mean hundreds of people saw that report. Maybe then Mrs. Henry's testimony would be considered false because she wouldn't have been able to see King's face......Wait why do I want to help King??? He's the one who got me into this mess. He's the one who "paid" me, and the one who decide to go into the drugstore high. Did everyone forget that little piece?????
Oh shoot!!!! The judge is starting to ask.
"O'Brien, didn't one of the newscasters say the robbers were masked?"
"Yes, one channel did say the robbers were masked."
'Well, why not bring it up. Mrs. Henry would be lying if we can prove it."
"It's too late to bring up any new evidence and plus Mrs. Henry's testimony helps you."
Oh God here we go. Good bye old me and hello to the unknown.

3:00,

Then you must return a verdict of Guilty of felony murder.......Oh dear God even he thinks I'm guilty!!!! There goes the jury, they're not even looking at me!!!!! I guess this is it. They'll be back in less then five minutes. Better start saying or thinking my goodbyes. Bye mom, bye dad. I'm truly sorry I'm bad at picking out good people to have as friends. Good bye Jerry, I hope mom and dad talk to you about how to make good friends. Please don't be mad at me, and when you're old enough come visit me, please. Good bye to all my friends, the rest of my family and all my teacher. Good bye Mr. Sawicki. I hope I'll be able to give you me notes, maybe you'll sell it to a movie producer. Good bye to all my hopes and dreams.
Thank you O'Brien even if we don't win, thank you. You've taught me a lot in a short time. Thanks to everyone who stood with me.
God please protect me, if I do go to jail and if I don't.

Falsely Accused

Steve Harmon is not guilty to the supposed charges that he was the look out in a robbery that ended with a bang. In the book Monster by Walter Dean Myers, Steve Harmon is accused of being the look out in a robbery that ended with a man being killed. There is no cold, hard, factual evidence that Steve participated in the robbery. The state's main witness, Mrs. Henry, never said in her testimony that she had seen Steve in or around the drugstore at the time of the robbery. "(She points to KING) The gentleman sitting at the table was one of the men arguing (164)." The state also brought in known criminals for its other witnesses, Osvaldo Cruz, and "Bobo" Evans. All we know is that they have lied before and may also be lying again to save themselves. Both said that Steve was the look out in the robbery. Although during his testimony Bobo stated that he never even talked to Steve, nor was he sure that Steve was ever paid for his supposed services. It makes no sense to do a possible dangerous service and not get an award such as getting paid; therefore Steve had no motive to be the look out in the robbery.